I'm not promoting my Blogspot for the reason of I don't want to be known by my friends. The first sentence says it all.
I had a very bad experience when I was in high school. But after what happened in my high school life, I tried changing everything. From my looks, appearance, attitude and genre. My college friends have been very friendly to everyone, no argue with that. They approached me and to tell you, I'm not really a friendly type of guy, I'm just loud. I don't want to lose my friends that's why I'm not telling anyone of what is the real me. I'm afraid that if I told them the real me, they might be not very comfortable if we're all together.
When will I tell it?
That's the question that even I can't answer. Sometimes, I want to get out of the country and start over. Tell someone from my country of what experience I had and then forget them, including my friends, college/current friends. When I was in the YFC, they had a prayer where everyone was very open to each other. I want to talk, someone is whispering into my ears, I can hear him pushing me to open up to others. But, I just can't. My tears fall down and no one notice it since everyone's eyes is closed. After the session, I tried to stop my tears from falling and no one noticed it.
When? I don't know. But be my friend, and I might.
Btw, I don't have any best friend.
