When?

Well, after 3 years in the De La Salle Canlubang, I haven't been so true to my friends.

I'm not promoting my Blogspot for the reason of I don't want to be known by my friends. The first sentence says it all.

I had a very bad experience when I was in high school. But after what happened in my high school life, I tried changing everything. From my looks, appearance, attitude and genre. My college friends have been very friendly to everyone, no argue with that. They approached me and to tell you, I'm not really a friendly type of guy, I'm just loud. I don't want to lose my friends that's why I'm not telling anyone of what is the real me. I'm afraid that if I told them the real me, they might be not very comfortable if we're all together.

When will I tell it?

That's the question that even I can't answer. Sometimes, I want to get out of the country and start over. Tell someone from my country of what experience I had and then forget them, including my friends, college/current friends. When I was in the YFC, they had a prayer where everyone was very open to each other. I want to talk, someone is whispering into my ears, I can hear him pushing me to open up to others. But, I just can't. My tears fall down and no one notice it since everyone's eyes is closed. After the session, I tried to stop my tears from falling and no one noticed it.

When? I don't know. But be my friend, and I might.

Btw, I don't have any best friend.

GOD will provide

Eng week is tomorrow, and we're running out of time decorating the Main Lobby!

4th floor and 3rd floor hallway still not ready, so does the exhibit in the main lobby. Decorations still not in places, letterings not yet finished and there's just 4 of us preparing for tomorrow.

As we decorate, we say it's not good and dull, and because of the accident, the decoration became fantastic! Coincidence? I guess not. Someone is helping us.

When we're preparing for the letterings, one of us ask if we could go with her to the bathroom. First, we thought she's scared. But we saw that she's bleeding. She accidentally cut his finger with a cutter and it was bleeding badly. So I said I'll go with her, because she's the only girl and someone should assist her.

As we're on our way to the girls bathroom, I ask her If she wants me to go inside with her, and she say yes. I told her that it'll be more painful if she washes her wound, so I told her be careful.

When she washes it, she suffers a lot of pain. so I told her to cover it with her handkerchief and she did. I told her not to sip her blood but she already did so she spit it out. A moments later, she suddenly fainted!

I was so scared because I have OCD. Everytime I see someone fainted, I will feel unconcious and uncomfortable to all people I see. I got scared because she's looking to me like a bad spirit came into her. I shout for my friends help. I don't know what to do. I'm scared of fainting people. But when my friends arrive, she's already fine.

When we continue working with the display, I feel already unconcious and uncomfortable. I'm shaking, my mind is flying, and I can't concentrate. So I suggested that we go home. We finished first the letterings background, then we go home.

I'm riding a motorcycle, making me more uncomfortable because I see a lot of people. It's a 30-45 minutes of driving. So I texted my sister if she's still at her job, but she didn't reply. So I started driving. I didn't tell it to them so that they wouldn't worry about me. First, I follow their car until we go to different direction.

I started getting scared because it's so dark, I'm all alone in the road, and it's 12mn. I can't see a thing. So, I start saying, "GOD will provide, GOD will provide..." Over and over again. Until...

A Van! Thanks, now I can follow it so I wouldn't worry about people crossing. But it was so slow. I can see cigarette smoke and ash coming out of the van. They even open the backdoor(maybe it's still open), making me very worried. Until...

I start saying again "GOD will provide, GOD will provide..." Over and over again. And another Car! A fast-driver! Thank God! So I follow the car. Finally, I can be at home in no time! But wait, the car is turning right, to the express way. But...

Good thing the road is full of lights! Woot! Thank God again! And I saw tricycle's and trucks to be followed.

I told myself, "I wish I didn't have OCD. I'm so obsessed and overreacting, for crying out loud!"

Then, National Road. I see bright lights, Straight road, but no vehicle. I'm thinking that there might be a checkpoint and I might miss it, because I have poor eyesight. Oh no! I might get caught for running from the police! Until...

I see a red light. Phew! A vehicle! I started saying "Please be a motorcycle, Please be a motorcycle..." Over and over again. "Yes!" I said loudly(literally), "A motorcycle!" Now I will know if there will be a checkpoint. And there is! I even saw a motorcycle being followed by the police car and not stopping. Because the police was so conscious to the police chase, he says that he already saw my license, so no need to show the OR/CR. Now I will be home in no time.

As I go, no vehicle again visible in the road. Until...

A motorcycle overtaken me! Wew! Now I have someone to follow! He drives so fast that I can't chase him. But the good thing is, because he's so fast, we saw a lot of vehicles. Finally! But then...

Oh no! A gang crossing! If I stop, I will be in great danger. So I overtake and ask again, "Please no more scary things, Please no more scary things..." Over and over until I arrive home.

When we get into our village, I just realize...

I FELT GOD

Now I have strong beliefs! Thanks cutter! :D

Red Skin

Well what do you know, the true color was revealed. I'm not going to drop out names here for some reasons.

You're so unreal, plastic, and a real pain in the neck! First me, then my career, and now my interest? What's next? My whole life?

You're always telling me that dancing is so unimportant and will not contribute anything to my future. But in the faces of others, you're always bragging and telling them that I'm the best and always making me do some stunts so your friends can see it.

Now you're putting all the blame on me? I broke the computer, I'm so lazy, I don't contribute to anything. Maybe next time, you can blame me for global warming and world economic problem.

You're more on words, not in action. You think you're not addicted but you're more addicted than me. You think I'm lazy, but you don't even get tired and exhausted, not unlike me, I dance to my last breath. You're not cool, you're just recognize because you're talkative. I'm popular because of my talent and my personality.

Get a life!

I Hate Everyone

This is the first time I felt so... Stressed...

I don't know why am I like this but I have to say that there's just too much of a backstabber today and I can't handle it. Maybe next time you will see the next image of me, I would become rude and mean.

Guess what, I don't like my career being a dancer, I don't like being an officer, and I don't like being recognize. I don't have free time. I say no but I have to say yes and I have no choice.

You will see our organization as a f*ckin' club that you can't do anything about it.

Well, guess what, I don't want to be here and I want to quit.

I will just finish what I promised being a vice president for 1 year and then quit. GOODBYE.

Cookies!!!

You know what's weird for today?

All about this box of cookies

Why?

We eat them, of course... Just the 3 of us. Me, my sister Erika, and my li'l bro Adrian. We bought this box of cookies yesterday. Imagine? Less than 2 days and it's empty? Crazy right? :p

Okay, I'm exaggerating. Don't worry, it's not yet empty. We already ate 3/4 of it. Maybe this proves that all of us are chocoholic, lol.

How?

Well, this is our schedule of eating. In the morning, my li'l bro, Adrian a.k.a. Moja, is the only one eating breakfast. My sister and I don't eat breakfast because we're still sleep at that time or we're late for our class. In the afternoon, my li'l bro always go out and buy some food then play, my sister will cook some food or she's not home, and I? Well, I'm at school. Before evening, we will do whatever we want to do while eating, lol. Lastly, at Dinner, we eat all together. If we're still awake, then we will get some food from the fridge or from the cabinet where our food is stored and eat. I do that all the time, because I can't sleep without eating anything.

But the weird thing is, I don't get fat. :p

So it begins

Now, I'm now being recognize. Thanks to Synergy. So, I stay in dance troupe. We practice for our major event "Dancelebration." We also change our name from Synergy to "Lucid." Lucid means vividly, lively, clear. We got our motto "We dance to express, not to impress" from the video being shown to us. I enjoy dancing and being in the Lucid dance troupe. Before the Dancelebration, there was an event called "Danz Dish III" and we were invited to perform in the stage. That was the first time

I dance in stage and it was spectacular! At first, I was getting nervous. But when I'm on the stage dancing, I start enjoying it and I dance like nobody is

watching, and next thing I know, our performance is over. I start saying that "I want to dance again!" So, I got excited for the Dancelebration. I've got to say, the dancelebration is the best experience in my whole life(so far).

After the event, we started choosing/appointing the next officer. I was a little bit happy because I become the P.R.O. or Public Relation Officer of the dance troupe. After the year, a lot of members graduated leaving us few members in the dance troupe. So, members have been a problem to us. A few members participating in the dance troupe, we're lacking of members to join the competition, and we have no choice but to recruit some beginners.

It was fun, even we're lacking of members. We had a lot of performance and competitions, and the next thing I know, I was recognized already all around the school. So, I keep dancing and never quit even we're having a lot of problems from the dance troupe. We didn't win the Most outstanding Organization this year, but I'm still happy that I won the Best Male Dancer of the Year. Go Lucid! :D

Btw, I became the Vice President of the Dance Troupe. Well, this is unexpected, now I have to do my best in dancing. Wish me luck this year! ^_^

How did I start?

Yay! I'm blogging again! :D It's been a year since I blog. But, why did I blog? Well, I blog for something because it was a requirement for our englone class. I got bored and stop blogging(and I failed LoL).

But why I blog again? Well, I want to share my experience of what happened to my college life.

At first, I was a silent guy. I'm trying to know everything about my school. A lot of people asking me if I want to hang out with them, but I always decline their request, instead, I want to be alone sitting on the bench. After a week, where I know everything about my school, about the people in it, of what character of "Aldrin" am I going to use and which friend am I going to pick, I start having friends afterwards. I had a lot of friends. Some I met from my algebra class, and some are my "cafeteria" friends. :p But I never had a crush to anyone and I don't know why. I guess I didn't saw the girl I like.

And I start thinking, what else can I do? How can I be recognized?

So I wait, until the event called "Recruitment Fair" started and start thinking if will I join dance troupe since I know dancing(and a little bit of breakdancing). But I'm scared to sign up alone. So, I tried to convince my friend Sean to join dance troupe. When we're about to sign up for dance troupe, a girl approach Sean and recruit him to join the Badminton Club. So, he didn't sign up anymore, making me not to sign up for it.

Then, I waited until acquaintance party just to dance. I enjoyed the acquiantance party so much that didn't notice there's someone is taking some pictures of me doing breakdance and they're all watching me dance with my friend Jerome. I did a breakdance called "The Worm" and they are amazed of what I can do. I've met a lot of friends from the party and they always want me to do some stunts. They all convince me to join the dance troupe, but I didn't.

After the party, there was an opening for the SportsFest '07. I was invited to cheer our team and I accept it. We practice our cheering with the choreographer of the dance troupe and we performed at the opening of the SportsFest '07. They said that it was just an opening and there's still a cheering competition. So we practice again and cheer again. We didn't win but we're still glad that the judges and audience love our cheer.

Because of the practice, I've met the choreographer of the dance troupe. He want me and Jerome to join the dance troupe. I just accept it and wait for the text message from them. Then, they ask us to join the dance troupe. When we're at the Mirror room, they ask us if we are ready for an audition. We were shocked because we didn't know that we need to audition. When we said that we're not ready, the choreographer, Benedict, made a step for our audition. Then after we perform it, they ask us to do some stunts. And the next thing I know, we're accepted and we can start our practice right away. We practice for Talent Quest '07 and we won the first place. That was my first performance and it was great! Go Synergy!